No this is never what I wanted, never what I thought I'd signed up for

Tonight is one of those nights where you just want to curl up in a ball and do nothing but listening to your favorite song as loud as your headphones or speakers can go. It feels like a Friday and my eyes are red and puffy from crying and my parents and I aren’t exactly on talking grounds. It was awkward because I wanted to watch my favorite tv show but I had to watch it in the same room as my mom because my dad was using the other tv. We didn’t speak. Once it was over I got out of there. Why I’m not speaking to them is a totally different story altogether.

My history teacher is worried about my grade so she sent comments to my parents in the mail. I understand her concern and all but she basically ruined my life. I stopped telling my parents about things for a reason, and now that she told them everything I didn’t want them to know, we haven’t said anything to each other. My parents came into my psychologist’s office with me this evening and read the letter. Like yes I had a rough patch but I worked my ass off on an assignment that was due yesterday because I knew I needed a good grade. But now my parents think I'm irresponsible and bratty and everything that I’ve tried to avoid for the past year. Honestly, I need a break from my parents and I made it clear to them that I wasn’t telling them about stuff for a reason and that I hate my tutor and I just want to deal with this one on my own. No success with that one but whatever. I cried the entire time I was at my psychologist’s office, even after my parents left the room half way through. My psychologist said it was only a bump in the road and I’ll pull through it. My dad said he acknowledged that, but my mom had a look on her face like she disagreed with this. Congrats mom. You made me feel like shit, as usual.

Good things: Thanksgiving is on Thursday and I'm going to New Jersey for it; I’m seeing Harry Potter on Friday with A whom I haven’t seen in forever; the thing on Saturday; school on Monday, and I can’t wait to finally get away from my parents again.

I need to get out of the house as much as possible during my time off. After tonight, it’s not even an option anymore.